Currently in a "why do I volunteer to speak at conferences" mindset.
@pollita then don't (for a while). If it's not fun for you, it's not gonna be for us (attendees) and your mental health is way more important. Just keep doing the things you feel passionate about. And if it turns out that means we'll see you on a podium once more, then great. Just don't feel bad about not doing that 💚
@pollita we still love you to bits, silly goose 😊
@johmanx10 The conference is fun, it's the preparing and the hour of actual speaking that are terrifying.
@pollita whaa~? I've seen you speak (on videos only, regrettably) and you mean to say you're terrified of speaking? Dude, I'm gonna let you in on a little secret here. You're amazing! I know people can keep saying something like that and you'll only believe it when it suddenly clicks, but it's so true! Preparations, though, I'm afraid I can't help you make them suck less, unless there's actually something you could offload 😅
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